ggrr..

i really hate thos assholes, waaahhh.. i just post here that i’m mad about people who are making fun of others, but damn!! they are really unstoppable, they took a picture of our officemate and edited it in photoshop, and put her face in a pig’s body, and also put her face in an electric fan..damn those assholes!!!!!!!! they were even caLLing her LiLet-sunin..tsktsk..

die!!!

happy-ness…

i am somehow happy..how and why? don’t know..hahaha..despite of stressful days and work..and problems here in office…still, i am happy.. 

i’ll share some quotes that i read in someone’s blog..

^_^

and another one..

thoughts that i just want to think of. hehe

lately, i’ve been thinking about different stuffs going on around me, but then, i just realized what i just read in a text msg.. too much thinking can lead to insanity, haha, maybe that’s what makes me sooooo stressed.. i think too much everyday, and my  mind wants to think about anything everytime i have nothing to do..i think about people, i think about my dreams..i day dream, and most of the time, i feel like crazy talking to myself and speaking..i don’t know why, that’s why i also love to blog and talk to other people in some forum..because there are lots of things going on in my mind.. it doesn’t stop and i have lots of point of view that i want to share.. and sometimes, i just don’t want to think alone, feeling pathetic and crazy that’s why i write..

i hate when people talk about me, behind my back and then approach me and be nice to me, backstabbers, or let’s say, not really, but kinda.. haha. you know, when some people make fun of you because of how you look and how you present yourself, they laugh at you..behind your back, then when you approach them, they’re nice, not because they want to be nice but they’re just nice, it’s just that..they’re making fun of you.. get my point?!

i don’t know if someone is doing that to me, but if ever, damn! i would really be sad.. but i know people who are like that, the least i can do is to tell them how mean they are and what they’re doing is bad..because i’m not really a type of person who is “pintasera” or someone who Loves making fun of people because of how they look.. for me it’s just bad..

if you don’t like them, then don’t mind them! why bother looking at them then laugh !?! sometimes, it hurts me.. it’s just not right..at least most of the people i know, tell me that i’m ugly..in my face! hahaha.. that would be better rather than making fun of me behind my back.. hehehe, i know i’m not as pretty as those girls in magazines that men fantasize, even a lot of people are telling me how ugly i am, so be it.. i know i’m ugly!

i don’t have a small and pointed nose just like any hollywood artists..

i don’t have the smile like julia roberts or cameron diaz

my butt and my body is not as bootylicious and curvaceous as of those of j.lo and beyonce

but i have lived with it, and still living with it..and if i can live with that, why can’t others just live with it!?!

i’ll be here for a long time..so live with it.. heheh

i know i’m ugly but i don’t and never felt ugly.. except when that someone is pulling me down and really can’t stop telling me how ugly i am…

but really, i don’t feel ugly..i love myself.. haha.. isn’t that confusing, i know i’m ugly and yet i don’t feel ugly? wahaha.. anyweiz that’s what i feel.. so just live with it! hehehe

how stressful world can be?!

been working my ass so hard.. damn, i’m stressed out this past couple of months.. and adding to my stressful work is someone whose making it more stressful than ever.. ggrr…i just hate it, since i had bunch of work to do, i wasn’t able to sleep well, and now i’m used to waking up late and sleeping late, as a result.. i go to work late everyday, my body can’t really take it anymore..because of irregular and SUPER LACK of SLEEP, and now, i think my boss is mad at me..but if he is, just don’t ignore me..tsktsk..talk to me and speak up that you hate me being late…i feel like i’m an outcast since last week..my boss doesn’t talk to me anymore.. 

i just really can’t wake up early now..i’m trying..but we’re the only people who are working our ass off..i love my job.. but atleast, i want to rest… huhu, we always have lack of sleep..i guess my body is just too weak, i am not like them who’s used to sleeping late and sleepless days..

crab mentality

as of now, i have no work..the chances of doing something is 0% haha. and the chances of doing anything is 100%, can’t think of anything to do so i decided to post..hehe. and today, let’s talk about anything under the sun.. let me think first.. hhmm..tik..tac..tic..tak..enough about my rantings, about my super dramatic LoveLife and Life.. hehehe.. then… hhmmwhat should we talk about?? what should i post??

ahh now i know, let’s talk about crab mentality, hehe.. have you ever experienced that? where in whatever you do, some person just won’t shut up and won’t stop pulling you down?, even if you’re doing nothing..you’re just in the corner.. eating, and not minding enyone..you just enjoy yourself and your friends but then, this someone, will come to you and saying things to make you feel bad and make himself feel better??, why do people like them exist?? and why do they have to be that way?? for that person nothing in you is good and beautiful.. for that person you’re nothing.. and because of how that person treats you, you’ll feel low, cheap, ugly and worthless..and if you already feel negative about yourself, that person won’t stop until you’re dead..it’s like, that person is slowly killing you by pulling you down..haaysss..what a life.. hehe. i said, enough of myself, but here i am..telling bout me..haha.. just y do some people want me down?? i don’t get it!!!