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-- Manda Orti

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September 4, 2011

I’m ok now, I’m a bit happy. I’ve learned a lot of things since I bought a book and got a tattoo. I realized that, maturity, self-realization and a lot more that concerns my attitude are the reasons why I’m happy, so it’s not really or just doing what I love or loving what I do, it’s more of a growth that I’m seeking. Emotional and spiritual growth that is.

 

I’ve been hurt a lot of times and on those times that I’m in pain, I forget what other people feel and think because when you’re in such a high emotions, like anger, sadness, pain, etc you tend to ignore other people’s feelings because you’re just concern on what you perceived and what you have felt on that time of day. 

 

So after having a good conversation with a former colleague andd also a friend, I’ve experienced a “quiet” time of my life or what you call, realization. I did a lot of terrible things before, because I was in such a “negative” feelings so I gathered all my thoughts and think about everything that I have done and finally made some status to post.

Sometimes when you’re hurt, you do things (unconsciously) that makes it hurt more and that is, by hurting others as well. Adding sins to your pain, will just make you suffer more. Pay it forward is good, but NOT if it’s a “negative thing”. :) So if you’re hurt, face it, embrace it, accept it and do not pass it on. :) SMILE my friend :)

After that, I said sorry to those people that I have hurt. I send them a message and I felt soooo good. I felt happy, I felt light and I just realized that I was able to face, again, one of my fears and that is confrontation, although it’s not in person but at least I’ve faced them. I can say it’s both emotional and spiritual growth that’s why I’m happy. :)

 

I don’t like reading but since I wanted change and since I want to bring back the SMILE that I have lost. I bought a book and since then, everything just changed, like my mind is so overwhelmed with positive attitude. I also, (spontaneously) decided to get a tattoo with a word SMILE. (^__^) so that I would never forget it everytime I’m down.

 

Now, although my life isn’t perfect and my feelings is hurting, I could say that I have regained my smile. I now have again…

 

A SMILING HEART! 

 

(^__^)

 PS: I’m really glad that I talked to my former officemate! :)

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