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"hi, feel free to criticize me. it'll be much better if you correct my grammar than laugh at my use of words because i am a writer in progress so sorry for the inconvenience ;)"

-- Manda Orti

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June 9, 2011

I want to bring back my smile and the shine that I used to have. I’ve been sick for almost a month. Going back and forth to the hospital, having these lab tests, check up and medicines seems endless. I only have myself since I was a child. Whenever I have problems, whenever I’m sick. I always keep everything to myself there are only few times that I really said openly to my mom that I’m sick and aside from that I’ve never really been open to anyone. I guess, I’m just used to being alone because since I was a kid I know that I can only trust no one but myself and there’s only one person that can make me happy, and that is ME.

 

I don’t want to think about all of these sickness anymore. I don’t want to be stressed going to different doctors and thinking about how much money should I spend on my medicines. I don’t want to think of how much time I still have left or if I’m going to die as early as now. I don’t want to trouble myself with all this stuff anymore. I don’t want to think of my problems. I just want to bring back my smile and be happy. I want to smile and bring smile to other people as well. I want to go to somewhere far and be a volunteer worker but I don’t have the courage to do so. I want to live and continue living.

 

God, please let me SMILE ^_^

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