BIASED. a cheater’s confession

After having such a sinful experience. After I have done things beyond my imagination and after I created a world full of sorrows and lies, I have come to realize that in this world, there is NO REAL JUSTICE.

 Because, people are EMOTIONALLY BIASED.

 We hate unfair treatment and injustice but you, yourself, without realizing it. YOU are emotionally, biased. Well, maybe not everyone but most of the people.

 I used to have friends who have boyfrriends/girlfriends and their bf/gf have someone else, have what they call, “third parties” while some of my friends are someone’s mistress. I, personally, hate cheaters. I’ve been cheated a lot of times and i hate the feeling of being cheated. IT HURTS LIKE HELL!!

I don’t understand cheaters, I don’t like them. Why would they cheat? What’s the reason behind those cheating? I totally don’t get it. I was hoping for a world full of RIGHT, TRUTHFULLNESS, FAITHFULLNESS, LOYALTY and HONESTY. I always want justice. I always want the truth. I always believe in the word “FAIR”.

Whenever I get hurt, I think to myself “hindi ba nila alam kung gano kasakit ang masaktan at kung gano kasakit ang maloko?”

I was my own ROLE MODEL, believe it or not and it may sound funny or self-centered or”feeling” but I know that I’ve never hurt anyone and when I die, I can talk to GOD and say, “I have never step on someone and never hurt anyone or fool anybody..”

Not until, I become one. One of those people who experienced having a third party. Not until I became, A CHEATER.

I am a HATER of CHEATERS that turned into a CHEATER, a bitch , a flirt?, a sinner? whatever words i call those cheaters, it came all back to me. I never wanted to cheat. It didn’t even cross my mind but I never thought that I would be able to learn a lot of things from all of these.

I learned that no matter how much you love a person there will come a time that you’ll feel unloved and neglected and those feelings will suddenlt eat you and will make you feel tired. You will start to look for something or for someone that will give you the attention, affection and the love that you’ve been searching for. You will become thirsty of everything and once you have found that person everything will fall apart. You’ll have hope and feel happy because for once you met someone who would be more willing to spend his time with you and without even realizing that you’re already cheating because you just learned that you are now happier with that person. It will break your heart at first but when the time comes that you have to choose you know that you no longer love that person you’ve been with for a long time and because someone else is already giving you that happiness.

These feelings make you feel happy and perfect and everything seems right, but the problem is sometimes the things that are right for you are wrong for someone else and that’s the hardest thing. You’ll never feel completely happy because you’ve hurt someone and those times that you felt you were the happiest were the loneliest for someone else. T_T

So why do people cheat? Why is it so easy for some people to play with other people’s feelings?

Maybe, just maybe some are plain pigs who just want to play around but maybe some are just inlove with love, waiting to be appreciated, waiting to feel loved because they just happen to fall inlove with people who do not know how to prioritize and who are afraid to show how they feel. Maybe because they are unhappy and want to experience a little happiness even if it will cost a lot of hurt and betrayals. 

I know I have to apologize. I apologize for not being good enough or honest enough. I apologize for being biased.

I apologize for being unhappy with our relationship. I apologize for feeling that you don’t love me enough. I apologize for loving you so much and because of so much love that I feel for you, I felt that I love you more than you love me. I apologize for my conditional love. I apologize for not being understanding. I apologize for nagging and demanding. I apologize for finding someone whom I think, takes good care of me more than you do. And I apologize for being happy with someone else while hurting you. I apologize for liking someone else while still having a relationship with you. And now, I apologize for leaving you.

:(

But, we’re both happy now..living our separate lives and single..

Thanks!!

:)