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I’ll conquer. :)
October 3, 2010I have decided to focus on my career first and stop thinking abot some nonsense. hahha, I might be falling in love again or maybe I’m starting to like him real bad but I have to endure the pain and this feeling. I have to endure or maybe just stop it. I have to conquer my fear of getting hurt and conquer the fear of being lonely if he’s gone. I have to endure and conquer.
I should ignore this feelings within me that’s continuously growing. The feeling of making me hurt and making me jealous and a lot more. I have to conquer everything and my dreams…
I will conquer everything! hihihi ( don’t know why but i keep on thinking of takamura. wahaha. I’m seeing his spirit and it’s like we’re both in the same shoes.. CONQUER!
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Buried
I’m asking my self right now, why i don’t miss him. I tried to reminisce hoping to get back the feelings i used to have but nothing happened. Somehow i forgot the feeling, the feeling of being with him, the feeling of being with my ex. I have forgotten it. I h.ave forgotten everything. I don’t even remember being happy and laughing sohard when we were still together the only thing I remember was when we were still in college, that was during our internship. It was actually our last day of internship and we laughed so hard we almost ran out of air.
Now, my memories are gone and the feelings? It’s like everything has been buried.
I don’t remember anything. I have forgotten what we used to have and w.hat we used to be. Somehow, I’m sad! I didn’t know that it would be easy for me to forget everything.
It’s all been buried and I feel like I need to learn again from the start. It’s like I have lived again and I am a toddler that needs guidance because I have forgotten everything I know and I’m going to start my life now.
:)


