mind your own business! damn it!

i am not a good person, definitely not perfect or even close to it but i’d rather keep quiet than say things / bad things about other people. I am not plastic but if ever i see something bad about someone’s attitude i keep it to myself and if i know that i’ll never be comfortable with that person then i will never try to get close to her/him, as in NEVER.

And i have never said mean things about other people EXCEPT if they have given me a reason to do so or if i am in that situation where i have to tell that person how rude she is or stupid she is.

I was never a type of person who gets involved with other people’s business no matter how high my concern is for that person and no matter how affected i am, but i make sure that i’m always there for that person and always ready to be a shoulder to cry on. Even someone is being humiliated in front of me or even if someone is being bad or mean to other people, i don’t get involved NOT BECAUSE I DONT CARE, but because I KNOW THAT I HAVE NO RIGHT TO GET INVOLVED but if they asked me or want me to get involved, then i’ll do it and i’ll do my best.

And what pisses me off?? is that no matter how much i want to get away from people and don’t want to get myself involved with them, why are they forcing themselves to get involved with my life???, they keep on coming and keep on getting in my nerves. why do people like them exists? she was saying that she was acting like that because she cares and because she is his bestfriend, WTF!?!?! she’s been like that since i was a child!!! that’s why we were always at war. Can’t she look at herself? DOESN’T SHE KNOW HOW PAKIALAMERA SHE IS!?!?! she was getting into my nerves when i had my first boyfriend, and when we broke she said some not so nice things about me, saying that i’m stupid for loving that kind of person, and i’m so weak and i’m just so stupid because i use my heart all the time, she said maybe she can help. DUH, is she out of her mind?!? she makes the whole situation worse, ALL THE TIME. she said, she cares about what i feel, DUH, if you really care you won’t do anything that will add a damage or an insult to my broken heart, you’re just stupid and you don’t know what real pain is, IF YOU ARE REALLY CONCERN YOU WOULDN’T HAVE DONE THAT and because you have never loved!, never, i know i don’t know anything about you but you also don’t know anything, what pisses me off is WHY?!?!?! WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO INVOLVED YOURSELF!!?!?! 

kala mo alam mo ang lahat. feeling mo magaling kang psychologist or whatever!?! but YOU ARE NOT, hindi ka ganun, at nagkakamali ka sa lahat ng sinasabi mo, nagagalit ako sau dahil binubuhos ko sau lahat ng galit ko sa ibang tao na hindi ko mailabas kya ko nagagalit sau?!? pwes mali ka dun, kahit ilang beses mong ipagdikdikan ang paniniwala mo, maling mali ka.. dahil nagagalit ako sa mga sinasabi mo, sa mga comment mo na baluktot , walang point at walang pinagkukuhanan, nagagalit ako dahil bakit kelangan mong laging maki alam, then you want me to be open?>!?!?! FUCK, pano magiging open sau sa ugali mo?? hndi mo ba nakikita ang ugali mo, feeling mo ang galing galing mo at ang bait bait mo, pero mali ka dun, maling mali.

minsan sa buhay, HINDI KELANGANG LAGI KANG NAKIKIALAM OR LAGI KANG MAY OPINION, MINSAN MAS MAGANDANG MANAHIMIK NA LANG, kung nasasaktan ako umiiyak ako at kung tingin mo tanga ko sa pagibig, hayaan mo ko!! kelangan ba mag comment ka na tanga ka, maarte ka iyakin ka sensitive ka! DO YOU THINK IT HELPS?? yun ba yung pagtulong na sinasabi mo?? hindi mo naiintindihan at kahit kelan hindi mo maiintindihan at di ka makakaintindi at hindi ka makakatulong sakin kahit kelan, how many times did you make a situation worse, huh!?!?! at kelan ka nagcomment ka ng maganda huh?!?! when my first bf and i broke up, kung anu anu pinagsasabi mu sakin at pati sa ex ko na yun, at yung 2nd bf ko nung nag break din kami, kung anu anu pinagsasabi mo sakin at tungkol sa kanya, did you ever think you have helped me?? may nagawa ba lahat ng mga sinabi mo? WALA, galit lang ang naramdaman ko sau nun at naramdaman ng ex ko nun sau, and now that we’re back together, ganyan ka pa rin.. YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE…at ikaw? never kitang pinaki alamanan sa buhay mo, never ako nanghimasok sau at nagsabi sau kung gano ka tanga at ka mukang tanga sa buhay mo at sa piang gagawa mo, may mga narinig ka ba sakin ni isa?? wala?? pero bakit ka ganyan????????? fuck ilang beses ng paulit ulit ang topic na to, hanggang kelan ka magiging topic sa mga blog ko na paulit ulit ang sinasabi ko at ang gngwa mong pakiki alam?? hanggang kelan kb makiki alam?? kelan mo ba ko lulubayan??? if you’re dead? if you’re gone? if you have your own family??

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST DONT NEED YOU OR ANY OF YOUR COMMENTS, IT DOESNT HELP AT ALL..

i know i am not a good sister, but you are not, too. and no matter how you look at the situation and the sins that we have done to each other. you are worse!!! worse than me.. you know why i said that? kasi hindi ako ang unang nakapansin, kasi hindi ako ang nakakakita, ibang tao mismo ang nagsasabi sakin ng mga gngwa mo sakin na hindi ko nakita or hindi ko hinusgahan na masama, sila mismo ang nagsabi sakin ng mga ginagawa mo at nagawa mo..you’re worse………. sinasabi mo pagdating ko lang sa boyfriend ko ako nagiging sensitive at iyakin, talaga? hindi mo alam kung gano ko ka iyakin? nalimutan mu na ba kung ilang beses akong umiyak sa twing pinapahiya mo ko at inaaway mo ko? nalimutan mo na ba kung ilang balde ang iniyak ko sa twing nag aaway kami ng kaibigan ko?? hindi mo na naiisip yun kasi matatagal na yun, at ang iniisip mo lang kung ano ang nakikita mo ngayon, hindi mo ba alam kung ilang beses ako naiiyak sa twing binabastos ako ng magaling nating bunso?? hindi mo ba alam na naisip ko at naramdaman ko sau at kay bunso na kahit gano ka kabait sa isang tao, hinding hindi mo sila pwdeng mai-oblige na maging mabait sau?dahil ako never akong naka alala na may ginawa ako sayo or ni comment sa mga pinag gagawa mong kagaguhan, pero sayo lagi akong may naririnig na hindi maganda?? alam mo ba na ilang beses akong nakarinig ng pintas ng ibang tao tungkol sau pero kahit kelan hindi kita pinintasan at ikaw ang laging UNANG namimintas at sa twing may nagsasabi sau ng paghanga at pintas tungkol sakin lagi mo yung pinamumuka sakin at lagi mong inaangat ang sarili mo?? hindi mo ba alam na binibilhan or binibigyan ko ng make up or mga damit  si bunso tapos ang igaganti nya lang nung nakita nya kong nag cocomputer bigla nyang sasabihin na “alis dyan, ako na”, hindi mo ba alam kung gano kasakit sakin yun at naiyak ako at nanahimik lang ako, nung sumobra lang sya dun ko lang sya pinagalitan, pero pag ikaw ginaganun baka sinampal mo na sya or inaway away..

hindi ko binubuhat ang bangko ko, hindi ko rin sinasabi dito na mabait ako at masama kayo, sinasabi ko lang na you don’t know how sensitive i am, hindi lang sa lovelife, hindi ako nabubuhay para sa lovelife, pero ang lovelife ko lang kasi ang inaasahan ko na magpapasaya sakin sa twing dinadown ako ng “life or family life” ko. i want my lovelife to be my armor and my shield that ’s why i don’t want to lose it kaya ganito ako, dahil ang mga friends ko ay malalayo at busy din sa kani-kanilang lovelife at career and not like all of your friends na party people at madalas mo nakakasama. my world does not evolve in my lovelife, it’s just that, it’s the only thing left when everything in my world is crushed and it’s just that i can’t open myself to other people except for my 2most trusted friends everytime my lovelife has beaten me up.