forgotten feeLings

it’s been a while since i last visited this blog. Now i remember how it feels to write again under these stressful situation and heart aching circumstances. It feels like forever, that i have forgotten about a lot of things. I have forgotten how to feel alive and be happy. i have forgotten how to enjoy and love with all of me. i have forgotten to be with my friends and the feeling of being with them. I have forgotten TO DO WHAT I LOVE MOST and to LOVE WHAT I DO. i have forgotten the feeling of having new friends and the joy of meeting strangers that will soon be my friends. i have forgotten that BEING WITH THE PEOPLE I LOVE MAKES ME HAPPY AND ALIVE. i have forgotten that i Live because of them and i was able to Live my Life with happiness because they were with me.

I have forgotten a lot of things and didn’t realized that those were the days that i lived my life without forgetting how to smile , I’m having a hard time now remembering those things, feeling those feelings that i have forgotten. I’m having a hard time remembering happiness.

I don’t know when but i started not to care, I started being a hot-headed girl who only thinks of herself. I have forgotten to be selfless and i became selfish but I STILL KNOW WHO I AM, I guess that’s the only good part. I AM STILL ME no matter what happens.

They say people change for one good reason, Either you’ve learned a lot or you’ve been hurt too much, not in my case. I guess BOTH applies to me. I’ve learned and been hurt too much that it changed me and it gave me a lot of negativity that i can’t take anymore. I have forgotten the positivity of living and being alive. The good energy that surrounded me before is now gone, my pain and my experiences took it all away.. AND NOW……

These forgotten feelings make me feel dead,

that is why i’m giving up all of these negativity and I’M GIVING MYSELF A CHANCE. A chance to get back all the feelings and the time that i have forgotten to share.. I’m resting so i can take it back, again.