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This is not a poem :)
August 10, 2009I wrote this last february and it’s not a poem, it’s a letter that i wrote for my bf who was also my ex. It was written like a poem so it would look ok to read it.. harhar. Anyways, i wrote it before our 1st monthsarry but I did not give it to him because, i don’t feel like giving it or telling it to him.. hehe, but I guess he’ll be able to read it now. hehe ^_^
to love you and be loved again by you
it doesn’t mean another chance to get hurt
nor another chance of regrets and failure
then do it quickLy and as earLy as possibLe
so i wouLd know that it wouLd be the Last,
no more hopes and prayers for the two of us
nor a happiLy ever after, coz it onLy happens in fairy taLes
but i wouLd want this Love to take Longer, 50 years maybe?
i’m just thinking about the possibiLities, coz im Living in reaLity
where it’s not aLways they Lived happiLy ever after
where not aLL prince charming are the same
and where Love is not as magicaL as what taLes describe it to be
no doubts, no second thoughts and no Lies
coz i wouLd never find a guy whom i can be most honest with
and i wouLd never find a guy whom i can accept whoLLy, but you
but it’s reaL, beLieve it or not!?! ^_^
you were even in doubts when i said “yes”
when you asked me if it’s possibLe for us to be together again
for me, i need not to think..
as Long as i Love you then it’s enough to be with you,
i guess i didn’t need my brain that day
but if soon,you decided to Leave again
just don’t Leave a trace anymore
and i wouLd be 100% wiLLing to forget you, TOTALLY
i Love you stiLL, but because..
“i feLL inLove with you aLL over again..”
so pLease do your best to treasure it..
and to treasure me..
^_^
forgotten feeLings
August 7, 2009it’s been a while since i last visited this blog. Now i remember how it feels to write again under these stressful situation and heart aching circumstances. It feels like forever, that i have forgotten about a lot of things. I have forgotten how to feel alive and be happy. i have forgotten how to enjoy and love with all of me. i have forgotten to be with my friends and the feeling of being with them. I have forgotten TO DO WHAT I LOVE MOST and to LOVE WHAT I DO. i have forgotten the feeling of having new friends and the joy of meeting strangers that will soon be my friends. i have forgotten that BEING WITH THE PEOPLE I LOVE MAKES ME HAPPY AND ALIVE. i have forgotten that i Live because of them and i was able to Live my Life with happiness because they were with me.
I have forgotten a lot of things and didn’t realized that those were the days that i lived my life without forgetting how to smile , I’m having a hard time now remembering those things, feeling those feelings that i have forgotten. I’m having a hard time remembering happiness.
I don’t know when but i started not to care, I started being a hot-headed girl who only thinks of herself. I have forgotten to be selfless and i became selfish but I STILL KNOW WHO I AM, I guess that’s the only good part. I AM STILL ME no matter what happens.
They say people change for one good reason, Either you’ve learned a lot or you’ve been hurt too much, not in my case. I guess BOTH applies to me. I’ve learned and been hurt too much that it changed me and it gave me a lot of negativity that i can’t take anymore. I have forgotten the positivity of living and being alive. The good energy that surrounded me before is now gone, my pain and my experiences took it all away.. AND NOW……
These forgotten feelings make me feel dead,
that is why i’m giving up all of these negativity and I’M GIVING MYSELF A CHANCE. A chance to get back all the feelings and the time that i have forgotten to share.. I’m resting so i can take it back, again. 