a Life of a workahoLic Lazz

my friends and i went out Last saturday and one of my friend’s words stuck in my mind, she said..

“mahaL na mahaL ko yung sariLi ko aLam mu ba? antok na antok na ko gusto ko na matuLog.. ayokong pinapapabayaan yung sariLi ko, saka sanay ako ng puyatan pero hindi yung ganito ka puyat..Lam mu ba, sobrang mahaL ko taLaga sariLi ko..”

miLLions of thoughts entered my mind…

“buti nga ikaw mahaL mo sariLi mo, ako naLimutan ko ng mahaLin ang sariLi ko.. kasi ako kahit gustong gusto ko ng matuLog di pwede, kasi pag natuLog ako Lagot ako..aLam mu yung tipong ambigat bigat na ng uLo mu at parang babagsak na katawan mo pero keLangan mu pa rin gumising at magtrabaho, tapos gutom na gutom ka na at feeLing mo waLa ka ng Lamang Loob at di pwede kumain pero go pa rin para Lang kumita para Lang mabuhay ang pamiLya mo??.. kung pwede Lang mamatay kahit isang Linggo Lang para makapagpahinga ka Lang at para Lang maintindihan ng ibang tao kung bakit ka waLa at absent kasi namatay ka.. tapos mabubuhay ka na Lang uLit pag ok na!?! yun bang tipo ng..

di sya makakapasok ngayon eh, kasi patay sya.. or kamamatay Lang nya..baka next week pag nabuhay uLit sya..

maswerte ka na nga sa kaLagayan mu atLeast may pahinga ka sa araw araw at minsan Lang to kasi ngaun na Lang uLit natin naki si pau, after a year..”

you know guys, i work so hard..super hard but the probLem with me is that, i’m aLways Late..why? because my body wants to rest a Lot because of too much pressure and work and everything..so i thought an hour or 2hours of Late won’t hurt.. but i guess, it does! i can understand that it hurts if we have Lots of work..but if i know that we do have Lots of work i see to it that atLeast i’m sort of earLy but if i know that we don’t have that much of work, sometimes, i do it in purpose because i want to sLeep..i want to rest, and i can’t controL my body anymore…

yes, it’s reaLLy work, i am working.. and if i go to a different company there wouLd be more work, more pressure and there’s no going back.. but i aLways think.. in generaL..

the company you’re working for, may feed you TODAY, supports and gives you money AS OF NOW, but when you get sick because of too much work, wouLd they even bother?? wouLd they even care?  NO,

wouLd they stiLL give you money if you’re in hospitaL and  you need hundreds of thousand because of your hospitaL biLLs or medicines?? NO

wouLd they even care for your famiLy, wouLd they be the one taking care of you in the hospitaL?? NO

they’re just going to forget you and Look for someone to repLace you and do your work.. it’s a cycLe..

this is how Life is.. you wiLL work so hard for your company to have money, for your famiLy..for your needs, but at the end of the day..when everything is not ok anymore, when you can’t work anymore because of sickness or whatever and you can’t earn money..the onLy thing Left with you are your friends and your famiLy..

at Lahat ng pinaghirapan mu para sa pamiLya mu, mapupunta Lang paLa sau, para sa gamot mo..at sinu ang mas maghihirap?? ang pamiLya mu din..

so everything that you have worked so hard for wiLL just be a waste…

wasted effort, wasted time..just wasted..

because everything that you did for everyone, wouLd turned out to be for you………

if you’re going to ask me if i’m compLaining? NO, IM NOT!!!

i’m just saying the truth and how work is..

how work can feed you and kiLL you at the same time..

it’s about the worLd of workahoLic peopLe..