thoughts that i just want to think of. hehe

lately, i’ve been thinking about different stuffs going on around me, but then, i just realized what i just read in a text msg.. too much thinking can lead to insanity, haha, maybe that’s what makes me sooooo stressed.. i think too much everyday, and my  mind wants to think about anything everytime i have nothing to do..i think about people, i think about my dreams..i day dream, and most of the time, i feel like crazy talking to myself and speaking..i don’t know why, that’s why i also love to blog and talk to other people in some forum..because there are lots of things going on in my mind.. it doesn’t stop and i have lots of point of view that i want to share.. and sometimes, i just don’t want to think alone, feeling pathetic and crazy that’s why i write..

i hate when people talk about me, behind my back and then approach me and be nice to me, backstabbers, or let’s say, not really, but kinda.. haha. you know, when some people make fun of you because of how you look and how you present yourself, they laugh at you..behind your back, then when you approach them, they’re nice, not because they want to be nice but they’re just nice, it’s just that..they’re making fun of you.. get my point?!

i don’t know if someone is doing that to me, but if ever, damn! i would really be sad.. but i know people who are like that, the least i can do is to tell them how mean they are and what they’re doing is bad..because i’m not really a type of person who is “pintasera” or someone who Loves making fun of people because of how they look.. for me it’s just bad..

if you don’t like them, then don’t mind them! why bother looking at them then laugh !?! sometimes, it hurts me.. it’s just not right..at least most of the people i know, tell me that i’m ugly..in my face! hahaha.. that would be better rather than making fun of me behind my back.. hehehe, i know i’m not as pretty as those girls in magazines that men fantasize, even a lot of people are telling me how ugly i am, so be it.. i know i’m ugly!

i don’t have a small and pointed nose just like any hollywood artists..

i don’t have the smile like julia roberts or cameron diaz

my butt and my body is not as bootylicious and curvaceous as of those of j.lo and beyonce

but i have lived with it, and still living with it..and if i can live with that, why can’t others just live with it!?!

i’ll be here for a long time..so live with it.. heheh

i know i’m ugly but i don’t and never felt ugly.. except when that someone is pulling me down and really can’t stop telling me how ugly i am…

but really, i don’t feel ugly..i love myself.. haha.. isn’t that confusing, i know i’m ugly and yet i don’t feel ugly? wahaha.. anyweiz that’s what i feel.. so just live with it! hehehe